A few days ago when I stumbled upon the weekend — a weekend that I'd slated for deep business work away from regular workday distractions — every fiber of my being said NO.

The NO wasn't actually that clear. It showed up as resistance. Which showed up as a dire need to shave my legs, paint my toenails, stock the shelves, stack wood, hang a new mirror and obsessively de-fingerprint it… what I refer to as Squirrel Mode.

The very fiber of my being was taken over by tackling tasks that had had been neglected for some time, thus rendering them suddenly urgent.

Other things (like self beautification and tending of my body temple) felt crucial to my spirit (I won't go into detail, but painted toenails are essential in my world because I'm very athletic and toenails take an unattractive beating).

As my body hummed happily away at this work of repotting plants, sorting through files, deleting emails and reorganizing cupboards, I felt very much in my feminine place. Sure, I was do-ing, but this doing felt good. I followed my heart, bought beautiful rocks for plant pots, picked a new nail polish color, and even arranged the food in the fridge and cupboards to look beautiful and inviting.

Occasionally a wave passed over me — But this isn't what you're supposed to be doing! This isn't the highest priority! What about your biz goals???

The pull of cultural conditioning is intense. I spent the weekend wondering:

Am I procrastinating? or Am I percolating?

Clearly what I'm birthing in my business isn't quite ready. It's close. I'm in that phase where I'm walking and staying in movement as my insides shift around.

We have to learn to trust this. And to understand that feminine ways of being often look like procrastination or are labeled as such.

Femininity is receptive. It's not about being a woman. It's about being in flow with what's coming and fully opening and going with that rather than fighting it or trying to direct it.

Working with feminine energy is more about being in the mystery. Dwelling in the unknown. Not knowing how all the pieces fit or the Why behind them but trusting all the same.

My mind wanted to tell me a story of procrastination, and yet my sleep was deeper. My home feels more restful. My desk and files more spacious and ready for what's building.

My creative spirit needed to clear this space. There are times to focus and push, there are times when procrastination takes hold… but that's why you do the deep work. To be more in tune with your deep knowing of Truth. To trust yourself. And to go with the flow of energy even if it's not what you put on your calendar or think you “should” be doing.

Photo thanks to Andrew Preble on Unsplash