Are You a Boring Person?
Hello, curious soul ~
The latest fear cropping up for me is the fear of being boring.
The terrain of my life changed so drastically in the last several months. I work from home, I have a job, I have a puppy, and now when I travel, I travel for work rather than my adventurous wanderings of pre-pandemic years.
With all these shifts, my extracurriculars also shifted. Suddenly I'm not so available. When I do have unplanned time, I like it that way. I prioritize my marriage and family, wont to make other plans.
But I'm aware that my world is feeling small.
Or is it?
Is that just the pendulum swinging the other way as I step away from hustling and always having to figure out what's next?
Is that the story my mind is conjuring as I feel less hectic?
What makes us interesting is often on the inside.
I do appreciate the external stimulus that provokes deep thoughts and new ways of thinking, especially with travel… but there are other ways to go about it.
You're invited to join me in contemplating or journaling to these prompts:
What makes me interesting?
What am I interested in?
How can I be curious and interested in others and the world around me?
There's a dance here of being concerned with what others think and being engaged with what YOU'RE thinking and learning.
The more I spend with the latter and turn that gaze inwards and cast it onto others by asking more intriguing questions… well, the more interesting life becomes even if I'm watching more TV than I used to.
I don't have to talk about the TV shows or my work itself, but rather my thoughts, challenges and growth edges… and also asking about those in others.
What are these things opening up within you? or
What are these activities helping to heal or close?
All that we consume and partake of are catalysts for something. They can be tools for exploring emotions and our own inner workings if we agree to remain conscious.
My animal card for the month of April was Hyena. It's never one of my favorites, and the medicine for it is sobriety. As someone who doesn't consume alcohol anymore, it helped me dive deeper into what sobriety can mean.
Right now it resonates as consciousness and awareness of when I'm trying to zone out, disassociate or run away rather than tune in.
Being busy does not make us interesting. Having a simple life does not make us boring by default.
It's all a state of mindset and perspective.
At least that's my take. Happy to hear yours!
Stay curious,
Kat